Songs

You know how you have a song that reminds you of certain events in your life? Like, when David and I had our first dance together at our wedding reception is was Lionel Richie singing "Three Times A Lady".

Or, when I hear the "Star Spangled Banner" and hear the line: "Oh, say does that star spangled banner yet wave" and think of the Orioles baseball team. At Oriole games you would always hear the "Oh" part way louder, because "Oh" was for "Orioles".

When I was at my Mom's house the day after she died, I glanced over at the television and there was this music video playing. Now, I have never seen anything on my Mom's television except for sports, weather and the news.

I'm also not reading into the song's message as a message from my Mom. If anything, she's telling me that she is sorry that she had to leave so fast without saying goodbye. But, of all songs . . . this is it . . . Apologize.

So, the song brings me comfort and eases my pain and I play it over and over again. Thank goodness she didn't pass away when the "Macarena" was popular!

I will tell you that the song playing on my blog now is my happy song for Mom. A little querky . . . but, aren't we all?

If My Nose Was Running Money

Thank You!

Coming To An End?

I almost closed shop on my blog. I just didn't feel like writing anymore and didn't think anyone cared. But, then I realized . . . this blog is for ME! It's my therapy, it's my creativity, it's my way of letting go or giving in.

It's like a journal. You know people are reading it and you only want to paint pretty pictures and none of the stuff that would show you have faults or that you would even fart in public.

Farts . . . that's the hot topic around the house. "Mom, I farted." Listen to that about a hundred times a day.

These past couple of months have brought a lot of changes to my life. I've had a lot of struggles and demons that I've had to overcome and some that I'm still working with. It's hard and sometimes it hurts so much. When I finally feel like I can carry on and that everything is going to be okay . . . my heart gets ripped out! I have felt a lot of pain in my life, but none like what I am going through now. I miss my Mom so much. At times the pain is so unbearable, but then I look at my son and I am so grateful that he was part of her life. He loves his "Grandma Honey" and misses her so much. David has been such a strength and a comfort. What would I do without my boys.

But, I'm back . . .

Thanks Syndy for having such a crazy family and friends on your blog that inspired me to write again. I absolutely LOVE "Trailer Life"!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Giving . . . your money, not mine!

Matthew came home with a small container to collect money for Easter Seals. It's called "Coins for Kids". There was a letter that came home with it explaining the purpose of the fund drive, etc.

I talked it over with Matthew and he was okay until we reached the part about "giving" money. "I don't want to give my money away! It's mine." I tried a softer approach . . . what would Jesus do? Jesus healed the blind man, helped the lame man to walk again and even blessed the children. "Yeah, but he didn't pay them money!"

Oh, the life of a six year old . . .

We went to the website to show him how the money would be used . . . even watched a video. Afterwards, I told him how grateful I was that he was born healthy and that everything was okay. That this money would help those families who's babies were not okay. He filled the box with no whining.

Our Little Reader

I'm sitting at the computer and in the other room I am listening to Matthew read a book to his Dad. Not a "see the cat" (simple words) kind of book. But, a really cool book with big words. It has been so fascinating to watch Matthew learn and absorb. The other day he came home and opened up the food pantry. "Mom, I need to do an experiment." He pulled all these food items out and mixed them together. He observed them at different times and made notes. It was fun to watch him.

Last Sunday was Testimony Meeting at church. Matthew wanted to get up and share his testimony. I was a little hesitant, but David went up with him. While David sat in the choir seats, Matthew shared his testimony. Blew us away.

I guess some things we are teaching him are sinking in . . .

Gilligan's Island

I introduced "Gilligan's Island" to Matthew and he can't get enough of it.

I found old television shows that you can watch online.

I forgot what a hoot it was.

UFO, Mountain and Igloo!

A UFO landed in our front yard after our big snow . . .

Our neighbors are building an igloo in the front yard or maybe just a fence to keep the Whacky Wheelers away!

The kids wanted a "mountain" to slide down, so David took the snow blower around the yard and made one. They are having so much fun!

The video includes our neighbors. They are having a blast!