Do You Do You Want To Hear The Good News or the Bad News First?

Dr. M's office has poked me, plugged me, prodded me, attached me, etc., to see what is going on with me. I didn't know you could run so many tests on so little blood . . . okay, it was about three vials full. So, I went this week to get the results of all the tests.

Driving to Peoria I was anxious, excited, nervous and scared. I wanted answers, but was I strong enough to accept what he was going to tell me. What if it was like all the other answers . . . we don't know. My stomach was in knots.

Before I share the results . . . I want to take a few steps back. I have had a hard couple of years with my health. I tended to blame it on premenopause, then menopause and now postmenopause. A lot of things were going on and I was going to a lot of doctors to try and fix things. Frustrated and angry due to lack of results . . . I decided to take things into my own hands. Enter Dr. M . . . my new Endocrinologist.

Can I tell you the relief I felt when Dr. M told me what was going on? Can I tell you how I felt a couple of hours later when reality hit in?! Two major and different feelings. I'm kind of in a fog . . . but very hopeful.

I have diabetes . . . it is mild and can be controlled with oral medication and diet. My thyroid is inflammed and my metabolism is very sluggish. Many of the problems that I have been having over the years is due to my diagnosis. A part of me is really upset because I've asked my doctors to check me for diabetes, etc., and none were concerned about it.

What have I learned from this . . . you have to take charge of your own health and don't wait for doctors. You bring it to them and push them to do what is necessary. I complain about something and they send me to a specialist. I complain about another thing and they send me to another specialist. No one looked at me as a whole person, I was being treated in pieces and they seemed only to be concerned with that piece. I cannot begin to tell you how much money we have spent to get no relief and no answers.

So, I've got a new cool device to check my blood sugars every morning -- the positive attitude keeps me from being terrified! I'm on medications for my diabetes, thyroid and metabolism and I'll be on a very strict diet regiment for awhile.

I am very happy and relieved to finally know what is going on and why my body has been doing what it has been doing. I'm very happy to know that I can get better. But, I would be lying if I told you I wasn't scared too.